live, laugh, love

Sometimes i feel like I have a lot going on in my life, a lot of stress and a lot of things to worry about, but I know that I am lucky for the life that I have. I catch myself taking a lot for granted especially things taht should be valued. No matter how mad i am or haw bad of a day i have i can always go to my firends and they will make me laugh some how. I have had the most amazing times with those girls and i will never forget all the stupid little shit we have done. I have fun every single time I hang out with them, if we are going on a little adventure or jsut getting toghether and watching tv, I am never bored. Everyone is going away to school next year except a few of us and I am going to miss them all SO much but instead of worrying about what is going to happen next year we are all jsut trying to have the best times we can with the amount of time we have left together. So far I'm having a blast and even though I am excited to start my life and meet new people, some parts of me wishes I didnt have to leave highschool and grow up.

Photography

I love fashion photography.I dont really take pictures myself but I really enjoy looking at old pictures on the internet from old magazines like the old Vouge and Elle magazines. I am still undecided as to what i want to do after highschool but one of the things i would really enjoy doing is being a magazine editor or something like that . I am very intersted in photography and design.

Money money money

Money is somthing that everyone needs but not everyone has. I have a part time job and i still have a hard time paying for things. I feel bad asking my parents for money and as i get older i have more and more responsiblitlites and more things taht i have to pay for each month. I drive so i need to pay my own insurance and gas and i pay my own cell phone bill. Also i am coming to the end of my grade 12 year and i have to figure out what i am going to do about college.

"What are you doing with your life?"

When your in highschool most people dont really think about how much their choices will affect the rest of their life. A lot of people focus on having fun and are always saying "oh next year i will try harder", but they dont realize that it is harder than jsut saying that to make it acutally happen. Of course there are always the people that are 110% prepared for everthing and know exactly waht they want to do with the rest of their life, but what about the people that aren't sure. It is one of the biggest decisions of your life and its hard to know waht choices are the best ones to make. All you can do is try your hardest and pursue somehting that you enjoy doing, but what if your best isnt good enough? then all you can do is hope that things work out to your advantage and wish that your life will turn out the way you want it to. Most people go through highschool not worrying about thier future at all, but is that really the best thing?

Winter

I think that winter is a big bummer. Its cold and windy and there is nothing to do . When i was younger i would love winter becase you can make snowmen and go taboganning but now there is ntoning to do. I recently attempted snowboarding and i had a lot of fun, but it was hard to pick up. maybe my winter wont be such a bummer if I have something to spend my time doing other than sitting in my house looking out at the cold snow and being pissed off.

-memories-

-Friends-

-love-

Small towns

I lived in oshawa up unil the summer before grade 4. I left grade 3 thinking that i was going to be going back to the same school with the same friends i had known for years, but my parents had a different plan. Over the summer they had sold our house and bought one in Newcastle. I was pretty young at the time so i didnt really think it was that big of a deal but I had no idea that 2 towns could be so completely different. I went to school in orono,a place i didnt even know existed. It was hard because i was shy as a kid and i didnt know if i as gunna make any firends, but one girl came right out and introduced herself the second i sat down beside her and to this day, 8 years later she is one of my closest friends. At first i thought it was gunna be hard to fit in with people that had been in diapers together but living in a small town and going to a small school was actually an amazing way to grow up. im sure it has its dissadvantages but i really enjoy clarke highscool and MOST of the people that go there and i have made some friends that i couldnt live without and some memories that i will never forget all in the little town of orono/ newcastle.

Highschool

Highschool is an intersting experience to say the least. There is always some sort of drama going on with someone. Drama, that at the time can seem like the end of the world to some people. You choose who you want to be friends with, but sometimes you dont realize that it might not be the best choice for you to make. There are so many different kinds of people and when your in highschool you really get to know waht kind of person you are and what kind of person you can tollerate being around. There are people taht are just genuinely nice, people that pretend to be nice and then there are people that jsut enjoy sabotaging other peoples lives and self esteem. When you are in school you can have the best and worst of times with people, you go through so much. Meet new people, lose good freinds, make better ones. Alot of drama that happens in my school i think is kind of a joke , and i hope that some of these people eventually understand the consequences of their actions and learn to build friendships that will actually last beyond the walls of our highschool.